I'm super duper duper annoyed. you have no idea how much things is going through my head. gg to explode already.
emath mock tmw after school.
Chinese O's oral next wed
Geog test next wed
Amath Mock next wed

Omg, i just marked my emath prelim paper, cedar girls. and i got like half of the questions wrong. oh great.
omg and ive gotta complete the scgs prelim emath paper tmrw. and the physics paper. and the amath paper by next week.
oh great. and ive still gotta study my other subjects.

i just wanna cry alrdy super frustrated.
and then again. i have no idea whats going on alrd
i feel like im in a whirlpool.

Prelims in about 2-3 weeks time.
Let's just pray that i'll get below 20 points.
Thats good enough.
I've stopped setting high standards for myself.
Because when i can't acheive it.
It just gets demoralizing and yeah whatever here it goes again.

Let's just hope tmrw's a better day
God's mercies are new everyday.

All fired up and ready to worship the King of Kings and Lord of Lords!
One word.
AWESOME:D

Firstly.
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR MAKING MY 16th BIRTHDAY SO SO SO AWESOME(:
OKAY i shall go in chronological order:D 

 Early in the morning.
Seven came to my house to prepare for my suprise while i was asleep. My mum planned it with them as well. I TOTALLY HAD NO IDEA. OMG.
and then at about like 8am they barged into my room, when i was still SLEEPING. and brought a cake and started singing happy birthday song to me. and they first i did was. whine. hahah! and i was like " OMG.. YOU'RE BLUFF MEEEEE):!"hhaah that was e first thing i could think off. cause they said they were coming over at 4.30pm. hahhahaah! and then after that i got blindfolded and they led me downstairs where they prepared breakfast... hahha and i was like WHOA the entire place was filled with balloons. picnic mat. and FOOD. hahah! they wanted an outdoor picnic. but it rained. so we had indoor picnic. hahahh! yeah. and then after that we talked played with the kitten and took PEEKTURES:D hahhaha and VICKI was drawing on my mirror. so now it is vandelized. hahah SERIOUSLY!hahah! anyways THANK YOU So SO MUCH SEVEN!:D love you guys to the maxxxxxx(: XOXO!
you guys really made my day:D
THANK YOU FOR WAKING UP SO SO SO EARLYYYYY:Dand like reaching my house at 6.30am! hahah!
you guys are the bestzzz! :D
Kay.

Afternoon!
I went to watch a movie;D ahah and ate  lunch till i was bloated! HAHAH

Night!
Ok, seven totally bluffed me and was like YOUR SECOND SUPRISE WILL COME LATER. and i asked my mum and realised that seven werent coming over! hahah
so my mum asked me where i wanted to eat and i said sakuraya. hahah so called my godma and had dinner at ANCHOR POINT:D opp Ikea. hahah!
AND IT WAS DELICIOUS! JAP JAP JAP! hahah! YUMMY! im def gg to put on weight. but ITS OKAY!
hahah
okay then we went round 6th avenue estates looking at houses hahah and the night breeze was so shiok:D hahah!and when we went home my mum was like EH . we are all to full to eat your gigantic birthday cake! hahahha!lol

NOW
and after reading bestie's blog, im (((: here here! http://zzzzs.livejournal.com/ hahaha sorry buddy! but im :D by reading your post:D hahah
Loveeeeee you budddy! Thanks so much for everything buddy!4 years of AWESOMEZZZZ !!! ILL ALWAYS REMEMBER:D


LOVE YOU GUYS:D
hahahaha!
PS: and teo just called today PAO day.(inside joke) and said it sounded like FREE CONE DAY

hahah! anyways PEEKTURES ARE ON FB:D

LOVE YOU SEVENNNNN!<3333
hahah seven totally suprised me today early in the morning by coming to my room while i was sleeping and really unglammm! hahha! and gahhhh. totally touched(:
love you guys!:D
and they gave me a pretty basketball:Dand wrote all over it.
totally cool(:
LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!THANKS SO MUCH FOR MAKING THIS DAY SPECIAL:D
totally touched man. hahah
ill update another time! now..i need my sleep!
going out for dinner Laterrr!

sevennnn<3

Chinese O's are over:D well Paper 1 and 2:D it was okay...
just going to leave it to God. Was unsure of some things. but ITS OKAY
ITS OVER:D
i just opened something and like, theres this gush of emotions
i shouldnt have opened it.
Just one click, gah time and time again, why do i have to chance upon it?
Kk, stop thinking about it. omgg.
yeah anyways3 hour amath tuition! WOHOO! success mans! PRO PRO
olivia came late! hahah, and i bluffed her we started and was halfway done with e topic hahah!
tmrw is another session! :O
walked oli to mediacorp cause she needed to get to shell. and like i was in fbts and when i walked there ppl stared at me. cause they were like lining up for some show tonight. quite a number of ppl. hahah it was super funny. cause i looked down and was like whoops. hahah! they prob think what am i doing there dress like that! hahah! IM THERE TO RUN A MARATHON! AHHAAHAHAH!:Dwell im just happy today:D
:D:D editted some pictures. well made collages actually. hahahha! i need MORE PICTURES TO EDIT!
hahah i just realised my dad has lotsa dsr cameras! but its all using film! super interesting. i never knew that. hahah! wohooo, stuff i find round my house. interesting. ^^ hahahah! and i found this super tiny camera! its so cute i tell you!

just to prove how small it is....

alright. i better study geog;p haha geog test tmrw

Yes thats how i feel right now. its e RARE times. wait FIRST time i end early this week. and i suddenly feel so bored! i have nothing to do. im too tired to study. Everyone is like at home, so theres no one to go out with.AND im too injured to exercise. HAHHAH! at the end of school. the whole school was like screaming and cheering. and the sec 4s were just like. uhhhhh. and carried on doing our geog hw. omgggg. nvmm. while the rest of the school gets fat and stoopid cause they never work their brains and sit at home and rot away. WE SEC FOURS WILL MUG AND GET 6 A1s YAY!
yes random moment.
chinese O's in 3 days! 1st JUNE! omgggg. had intensive chinese this week.
I want jelly hearts . prefects sold in school today. but our prefect didnt hand in our order. so we didnt get any.): sad sad.hahha but i ate ze's and cheryls. THANKYOU.its soo yummy. omg with all that studying and eating and not exercising
IM GG TO GET FAT):
FAT FAT FAT.
kk. in order to mantain my abs and make sure i dont get flabby. i shall swim. wait no. then ill be tired. okay maybe... ill .. hahah i dont feel like exercising. maybe play ball. hahah i want to go to the park.
sudden burst of randomness. omg. hahahah! thats entertaining.
OH I KNOW WHAT I NEED TO DO
cut hair. hahahaha
currently i have bangs which i pin up cause my mum cut them
i tried cutting them and messed it up. hahah!
so Yes thats what has been happening to me.(;
SO INTERSTING(:

omg. i just finished amath tuition and im all zonked out. ): im so so tired and cranky now. oh wells. ahhh stoopid integration):gahhhhhhhhh omg omg omg. ):ahhhhhh amath. im waiting for annie to come over now. haha. then gonna prepare for Mr tee's wedding. omg ive still yet to do all my hw. which includes four qns of geog, chinese exam paper. ER. geog notes. omg chinese O's are coming. hahah. 我可以得到A1!!!! CHINESE:D  hahaha!i want to do my work !but i cant even think anymore my head hurts):okay im just blaberring on and on cause im really tired and i need to do smth relaxing. SO EDIT PICTURES:D yaye! okay byee!
PHYSICS SPA ON MONDAY, ohman.
but nvm

you gotta love the subjects you dont like:D SO i <3 physics! i <3 amath!:D:D
hahahaah! RIGHT!

oh oh and did i mention i just found out how YOU really are like! gosh . well, im not going to let myself get used by you. so whatever! leave me alone. i've already found out what you are like. SO, stop faking it. THANK YOU.

okay i got bored. so i editted more pics!
AND i should go back and study now!






ps: there's more on my FB:D

cause i'm leavin on a jet plane, don't know when i'll be back again.

hahah oldies songggg:D
i should totally be studying.
But. i dont know what to study.
HAHA.
i need to be more DISCIPLINED):
ooooh ohh i got back my L1R5! hahha
if you're counting the higher the better, than i got REALLY GOOD! :D
hahahhahah.
okay im gg to go dl my photo editor. hahah!

OH OH and next week. HOPEFULLY its going to be a better week THOUGH i have 5 tests!
MONDAY
PHYSICS O LEVEL SPA ON MONDAY
PRELIM ENG ORAL AND CHINESE ORAL ONE BEFORE THE OTHER

THURSDAY
PHYSICS TEST

FRIDAY
EMATH TEST
CHINESE TING XIE


But at least this week its only a 3 day week(;
sports day tmrw! PR's GONNA WIN WIN WIN:D:D:D:D




Ps: MY TAILBONE REALLY HURTS))))):

))):
My tailbone is killing me. Its hurting SO SO SO BADLY): I HAVE NO IDEA WHY!): scared something's wrong. Super duper pain): need to go see doc to take xray.):
sports day is tmrw. Have to go to e stadium earlier! to do torch relay. hahas so egggciting.outing with e bballers after that:D long time since we went out.
Yeah got back geog today. Failed it again! hahah. ohwells. I keep failing my geog anyways so its okay.
match against AI today. we lost so that marks the end of our season. and the end of bball for e sec 4s);
ahhh four years in bball.
Ohwells im not in the mood for anything so i shall go try fig out what to do.(;

Nostalgia.
gosh, i looked at my baby pix ytd and i really miss those times):
saw pics with my cousins and my grandma gosh i miss her.
Just found this really funny pic of her in my com. hahah i styled her hair:D hahahaha
its superrr cool. it looks like a sharks fin!:D
Really miss those times where i can just go over to my cousins house because my grandma would bring me and go visit them.
I've no mood for anything today. Want to go out. But tmrws a school day. gahhhh.
i've nothing to do today.
dont wanna study no upcoming tests. Unless you count SS sbq?!
yeah whatever.
hahah. 400 m finals tmrw))))):
Nooooo): my tummy still feels kinda weird just recovered or recovering?  hahah
Didnt eat my dinner on thurs and when i woke up on friday tummy was super pain! SO i wanted to go home. BUT i studied for my chem test. SO i wanted to take it.
AND during the test i couldnt concentrate at all cause i was in SO MUCH PAIN): so just did the test very quickly and rushed to the toilet. hahah after e test went home and slept for about 2 hours. woke up and wanted to go back to school for remedial. But decided not to cause i was still hurting so did all my hw and stuffies.
and on wed! i went all the way to pioneer to catch bdiv match and took one a half hours to get home): with my SHOES soaking wet AND my half skirt too.): ICKY. super gross i was like walked with squsihy shoes... HAHH
anyways. cant wait for thurs(:
sports day! and after that finally get to go out with e bballers AFTER a long long time((((:
i hate the feeling of when we have so much fun and the time is always so short):boohooo.
ohwell. Thats life.

This few weeks have been shaky.
But i've been clinging on,
hoping everything will turn around and there'll be a breakthrough.

Thank God for a breakthrough(:

I regret how i've treated e people around me just because of my strive to do better than everyone else.
Pushing away my loved ones and exploding at them because i was too stressed out.
I'm sorry.
Sometimes, its just better to stop whatever your doing.
And actually THINK about WHAT you are doing.
Guess this is a level of maturity?
HAHA!

I mean, SO WHAT if you get all A1s.
Do you have God in your life?
Do you have JOY?

Because in Christ,
I have HOPE
I have PEACE
I have JOY
I am an overcomer
I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.

RESULTS...
DO not let it be my focus.
FOR WHAT?
so that i can prove i am better? i am more capable?
MY security.
Comes from God.

hahaha. okay. been really reflective these few days.
and im having a great week:D
3 tests down. 1 MORE:D

ran 4 by 400 today. my class got third.(:yaye. now my legs are aching SO badly.
Both my KNEES):

I'm blessed to be where i am.
Guess God is training me.
God has been trying to tell me time and time again to just lean on Him and trust in Him
Thank you to those who have been keeping me in prayer:D

just found this cuteee picture of meeee not too long ago!

HAHAH so maybe thats why ive been sleeping so much in school.
CAUSE I DID THAT TOO WHEN I WAS SMALL.;P

this pic of a little girl . (editted)
hahh she was running away with her dog.
HER DOG IS SO CUTE.

4 tests Next week!
Oh man.


hahha! I CAN DO IT:D
class cheer today!:D
4PR's GONNA WIN WIN WIN:D:D:D:D!
wohooooo!

The pics are overdue. but better than nothing:D hahah
im listening to this happy song by delirious!HAHAH makes me feel JUMPY!



Red bull!

gahhhhhhh
):




there's a few more months
I know.
Stop rubbing it in.

Hello. okay this week was quite good! Heats on Monday totally got postponed to thursday. Thank God. Cause my toe was injured so luckily didnt have to run. haha. well heats on thurs went okay. ran 400m came in 2nd in my heats, had a lousy lane!):used all my energy at the start trying to catch up! and thank you nadia for catching me. HAHA. She was like at the end of the finishing line. and when i finished she caught me cause i was gg to topple. haha. and my the back of my shirt kinda lifted up :X malu malu.and after that. I puked in the drain. Vomitted out my banana):felt really horrible vomitting, gosh, like i was gg to die. kept vomitting but nothing came out and suddenly all my food came out.well, my souvenier's at toapayoh stadium now at least. haha but felt much better aft an hour.had my yummy atapchi ice cream after that. tummy was hurting like crazy when i went home, didnt go for tuition :p.
haha, todayy. well im SUPPOSED to be doing my hw. BUT... hahah. okay ill get to it. haha gosh i spent like 5 hrs? on the com;p watching my show.WHOOPS. haha im glad jieming's back! havent talked to her for ages! hahah, talked to PPP on e phone just now and she kept screaming at me for screaming at her): i wasnt screaming. i was excited. and my phone reception is just CLEARER:D
hahah. okay sprint series cip on sunday 5.30am REACH SCHOOL. Omgg. well im taking down the bke numbers of the people! so that should be quite exciting:D hahahas!i kinda wanna shout jia you to the people though. but nahh dont wanna lose my voice and fall asleep later during church . so i shall do a slack job. haha. Gg to drink coffee after that so ill stay awake. My eyebags will be HUGE. 0.0.
okay i shall go be guai and do my work;D YAY me.
gosh really wish i had a laptop! then i dont need to walk back to my room! Its so dark! and everyones sleeping. YAWN.
oh oh oh. and i failed all my physics tests! except e first one): mans! and its fail all by one mark! GOSH! hahaha. WELL IM ALMOST THERE! :D
ooooh. and i got 26/40 for chinese test SUPER HAPPY:D hahahaha!
my Hols are all like filled with tuitions, mugging and and and completing hw. hahah
ohwell JIAYOU ME